Everyone who suffers from migraines knows what it is like when those nagging, disappointing and horrifying feelings of one coming on creep up. For me it is such a let down. No, not today. No, not again. I just took a triptan yesterday. I’m going to get a rebound.
Then comes the complete analysis. What did I eat, what didn’t I eat? How well did I sleep? Am I dehydrated? Did I do too much?
It really really sucks. I feel like I failed myself and my family. I’m putting them out again by being useless. I can never get anything done or do anything fun without the migraine consequence.
I sometimes daydream about what it would be like to not have to even consider one happening. Oh, the many things I’d plan and do. I’d even become a vegetarian. I can’t even begin to fathom what it is like to be someone who can do a good day of hard work and not get sick. Or, go hiking or running. To not have to extensively plan out an event based on avoiding a migraine.
That is where the fine balance of whether to do or not do comes into play.
To top it off, add children to the mix, and try to take care of yourself. Yeah right, your too busy and babies a designed to keep you from sleeping. I just have to remind myself that they won’t be this dependent forever.
I think the hardest feeling to wrestle is the feeling of not being dependable. Nothing is consistent and nothing is certain. So, do I do nothing? I will start projects and have to back down as soon as the become too much. For my health and sanity, I cannot plow into something knowing that the consequence will be a migraine.
But wait there’s more, add a personal life in there. You can’t avoid it all. Things will cause stress. People don’t always get along. People don’t always listen. And what goes hand and hand with migraine disease? Depression and anxiety. They create a vicious cycle.
Over the past three or so months, I have developed a significant increase in depression. I am dealing with the full force of the impact of a bad situation in my personal life. Having migraine disease makes it much harder to deal with the issues life throws at you. So, what can you do?
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